I'm pretty depressed right now. My life has been a bit like a bad country song lately: my cat died, my marriage is in trouble, I'm unemployed ... all I need is a midnight train out of town and the narrative would be complete.
Earlier in the week I was damn miserable. I'm not suicidal or anything; I don't have "a plan", and I really don't want to die ... except that I felt like I wanted to die. I didn't say this to my pdoc, but described my mood and motivation, and how they had suffered incredibly since the death of my dear kitty.
I figured that he'd up my abilify because it seems to be a very effective antidepressant for me. Instead he recommended that I try taking .5 mgs of ativan during the day as needed. At that dosage, he said, it shouldn't make me sleepy.
So yesterday I tried it. Within half an hour I needed a nap -- pretty amazing, given that I'm also on 70 mgs of amphetamine for my ADHD.
So much for that idea.
Too bad that didn't work.. Maybe because you don't have an anxious kind of depression but more of a lethargic kind? Maybe you should suggest increasing the Abilify and see what he says.
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Heidi (hotbrain)
I think I have a mixed type of depression. I get anxious, obsessive, and have mood swings, but at the same time I'm sleepy and unmotivated. I also think I'm really sensitive to things that will slow me down.
ReplyDeleteI asked my pdoc about upping the Abilify, and for some reason he thought the benzo would work better ... I wish I could get him on board with that.
sry about your cat..i hope u feel better..
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