I've made it past the one-year mark of my first (and worst) psychotic episode!
I know that I've been doing better this year -- no delusions in October that get progressively worse through November -- but I've nonetheless been very apprehensive about early December. That's when it all hit the fan last year. That's when I had to start covering things in foil. That's when I went on Abilify for the first time. And it wasn't as an "add-on treatment for depression", and it wasn't as a mood stabilizer like this year. It was an antipsychotic. I was taking it to control my psychotic delusions.
I've still been moody as hell. The lamictal has helped a lot, though clearly not enough; As I've titrated up, my mood has risen and stabilized, only to fall and destabilize as the sunlight decreases. But I haven't had a single delusion.
I received my diagnosis of psychotic depression one year ago today. Passing this milestone feels huge to me, like I can begin hoping for a full recovery. I feel like I deserve to celebrate! Any ideas how one celebrates a psychoversary? Please, please share in the comments.
The Lamictal Diaries is a mood tracker and side effect diary as I titrate up to a therapeutic dose of lamictal/lamotrigine for major depressive disorder with psychotic features. Or maybe it's bipolar II. Or "mood spectrum disorder". To ice the cake, I have comorbid adult ADD.
Showing posts with label aluminum foil. Show all posts
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Thursday, December 8, 2011
Tuesday, July 26, 2011
Today's Dose of Awesome: The Origin of the "Tin Foil Hat"
It occurred to me to wonder how foil came to be associated with paranoia and delusions (as indeed, it played a role in my own psychotic depressive episode). So I looked it up on Wikipedia. They have a short article about the foil hat meme, including the following sentence:
The effectiveness of tin foil hats is disputable,[citation needed]For. The. Win.
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